RIP MICHEAL JACKSON

RIP MICHEAL JACKSON... first of all...to all the MJ haters....pls dont proceed cause this u may not like....... 
Now coming to the main point..........THE LEGEND, MICHEAL JACKSON.....is no more in between us......under the same sky that we all live......
its been a year since he passed away.......world has seriously lost a jem.....
i therefore show all my love and gratitude to micheal today......
many of you may not even know this......but he has been through a lot..A LOT!!!!!!well the only problem is that people overlooked them and saw the bad side......why????everybody has bad side!!!I MYSELF IS FULL OF BADS!!!!N I DONT DENY THAT....but PLEASE PEOPLE..............FOR THIS ONE DAY........mourn for a minute for MJ..he deserves that..... From being beaten up by his father for money to the skin diesease that killed him.....which according to people was plastic surgery(Comeon ppl open ur eyes!!!he was a human too!!!!!!! arent u!!!!) as for me..........i did cry the same day last year...same goes for my father, who is a musician.....and today this year......i did shed few drops....but i am going to contribute the concert today eve that i am going to do to MJ...............
MICHEAL JACKSON......YOU ROCK!!!! AND YOU WILL ALWAYS LIVE FOREVER MORE IN OUR HEARST NO MATTER HOW MANY HATERS YOU HAVE..(P.S. these hates know nothing of music....n just sees negativity everywhere.....)
MAY HIS SOUL REST IN PEACE..........

AND PEOPLE.......listen to HEAL THE WORLD by him....you will come to know what he was......and just try once to create something of that sort........you will realize what depth he had......
THIS DAY IS FOR U MICHEAL>>>>>AND MY CONCERT TODAY IS IN UR NAME..........
you shall live forever in my heart.......

Confused state of mind......

This is my brother Kaustav. I am missing him so much today.........
You know i was just thinking, what do i name my life??? I mean whatever has happened to me from the day that i came to this world?I don't know if i am sad or happy at this moment.Have i lost myself??? or have i just found myself?????
   I don't even know why am i getting such a feeling right now. There are just so many questions arising in my mind right now.If anyone reads all these, will that person understand the intensity of all the feelings that i am feeling???
I want to be hugged. I seriously need one now........
 And what is supposed to be more important for a person: family, career, friendship or love? Now this is indeed a very difficult question. And why do peoples' minds change with time? And does time really heals? and is there really any future???? I mean it's just that we are passing a day and a night, and then we pair these two up and call it an entire day, then when we cross one of these, we call it yesterday and now that i am writing this, it is the present and tomorrow that everyone says no one knows, what is this tomorrow????
And what if someone knew what tomorrow will be like?? Only matter of "if"s are arousing in my mind right now.Then what is the reality??WHOM am i suppose to believe and trust?

   And I don't know why my eyes are full of tears.........

don't mess with the new world..it'll get tragic. .

hey everyone......you know at time.....you feel like saying a lot but the words don't really come to you.....adjusting to a whole new p[ace i quite hard...but i am so use to it now.....seems like child's play to me.......but the good part about it i that you get stronger.....anyway here is my new recording....

http://www.4shared.com/audio/IC1N1i-i/ad_umbrella.html

do comment....

i am back...finally....

hey everyone...i am back on net finally..........but now will be blogging less coz of new projects..........

seventh heaven!!!!!

seventh heaven!!!!
i am so damn happy today!!!!!!i am finally leaving rajasthan!!!!!!!~!!!feels like in the seventh heaven...i dont have words today....so i am signing off today..............
tik tok by kesha plays in mind today......... =)

God bless India...

i was listening to rang de basanti songs..........i cant believe i was crying!!!!! those songs, i mean i cant express it.i feel this strong wind storm inside my heart.that pressure inside me...it was too much. i write songs when i fell bad, about all the bad times. then the people who wrote those songs, what mind do they have!!!!! what intense feeling must they have had.
i am proud to be an Indian. i really am. i thank all the leaders who have helped us to be free. i am lucky to have been born today- the free India.
so many people died. so many wives cried. so many mothers carried their dead bleeding child in their arms. so many fathers had seen their daughters being raped in front of their eyes............
i always use to say that i hate Mahatma Gandhi. how could i be so cheap minded???i mean i dont even know that person well..........then who the hell am i to even say that i hate him????I WAS WRONG. he was a great man. all the leaders were great men and women.
i will never, ever forget this feeling i had today. my heart for the first time felt the chill of true patriotism for my own country.i literally felt as if i was seeing all those henus scenes in front of my eyes.it was like i had my hands tied and i couldnt do a thing. i am sorry for every little bad feeling that i had for my country God. although i was small and just commented on things.but today the feeling that i had...............it was revolutionary.tremendous it was.
believe me.....i couldnt gulp a thing.i cried like hell just listening to those songs. i clouldnt swallow my own salaiva. and people who think this is over reaction or something, please my humble request to those, dont visit my blog coz u dont belong here......
i feel weak. i knew it already.but today it is proved again. that music can take you anywhere, to heaven, its up to you, to hell, that too up to you. i mean it is the only thing that makes you cry for someone else if you really feel it.
its like you can feel someone else's feelings.
even though i am taking deep breaths right now, i need time to settle.my heart need to settle..i am a whole new person.cant say new but a lot better me with the sense of my wrongs.......
God, give me music.........

there are songs that makes you cry and there are songs that makes you remember times n help you relive moments...even if you don't want to.......here without you by three doors is making me shed tears.....i miss a lot of things....
you know there are a lot of untold stories....lots of misunderstandings...which are never to be told nor to be cleared.......everyone has their dark side..i too do so..........its just that it literally pains in my heart to remember few things..........i lived my life n enjoyed so much when i was beck there in Ajmer.....few friends are still in contact......i still cry thinking of those times...it meant just so much to me........i mean i spent my peak years there.........still now while writing this...i feel like someone's just stabbing my heart right in the middle of it..............
today i join my hands n bend my head in front of one of the most knows relationships-friendship......
its really hard to find real friends now a days...but i thank God for atleast letting me live that moment...even if it was very short lived.................
three doors' here without you....is playing n making my heart shrink............