seventh heaven!!!!!

seventh heaven!!!!
i am so damn happy today!!!!!!i am finally leaving rajasthan!!!!!!!~!!!feels like in the seventh heaven...i dont have words today....so i am signing off today..............
tik tok by kesha plays in mind today......... =)

God bless India...

i was listening to rang de basanti songs..........i cant believe i was crying!!!!! those songs, i mean i cant express it.i feel this strong wind storm inside my heart.that pressure inside me...it was too much. i write songs when i fell bad, about all the bad times. then the people who wrote those songs, what mind do they have!!!!! what intense feeling must they have had.
i am proud to be an Indian. i really am. i thank all the leaders who have helped us to be free. i am lucky to have been born today- the free India.
so many people died. so many wives cried. so many mothers carried their dead bleeding child in their arms. so many fathers had seen their daughters being raped in front of their eyes............
i always use to say that i hate Mahatma Gandhi. how could i be so cheap minded???i mean i dont even know that person well..........then who the hell am i to even say that i hate him????I WAS WRONG. he was a great man. all the leaders were great men and women.
i will never, ever forget this feeling i had today. my heart for the first time felt the chill of true patriotism for my own country.i literally felt as if i was seeing all those henus scenes in front of my eyes.it was like i had my hands tied and i couldnt do a thing. i am sorry for every little bad feeling that i had for my country God. although i was small and just commented on things.but today the feeling that i had...............it was revolutionary.tremendous it was.
believe me.....i couldnt gulp a thing.i cried like hell just listening to those songs. i clouldnt swallow my own salaiva. and people who think this is over reaction or something, please my humble request to those, dont visit my blog coz u dont belong here......
i feel weak. i knew it already.but today it is proved again. that music can take you anywhere, to heaven, its up to you, to hell, that too up to you. i mean it is the only thing that makes you cry for someone else if you really feel it.
its like you can feel someone else's feelings.
even though i am taking deep breaths right now, i need time to settle.my heart need to settle..i am a whole new person.cant say new but a lot better me with the sense of my wrongs.......
God, give me music.........

there are songs that makes you cry and there are songs that makes you remember times n help you relive moments...even if you don't want to.......here without you by three doors is making me shed tears.....i miss a lot of things....
you know there are a lot of untold stories....lots of misunderstandings...which are never to be told nor to be cleared.......everyone has their dark side..i too do so..........its just that it literally pains in my heart to remember few things..........i lived my life n enjoyed so much when i was beck there in Ajmer.....few friends are still in contact......i still cry thinking of those times...it meant just so much to me........i mean i spent my peak years there.........still now while writing this...i feel like someone's just stabbing my heart right in the middle of it..............
today i join my hands n bend my head in front of one of the most knows relationships-friendship......
its really hard to find real friends now a days...but i thank God for atleast letting me live that moment...even if it was very short lived.................
three doors' here without you....is playing n making my heart shrink............

i am what i say i am...just the way i am.....

many people think i am proud....they are right......but many people get a very wrong impression about me......
but its all ok...cause i have my own people supporting me.....but i just feel bad at times.....remembering the old times........
this picture of mine was taken in Ajmer...3 years back.....the book i am holding is food of love by antony capela........awesome book..i read it like four times...but to feel it..u need to have feelings.........m thats navneet behind...lead guitarist of the band that we once had...i miss those days a lot....jamming late nights......i just miss those days...but its fine..this pain has made me stronger.....
one thing i would like to make one thing clear n that is that what has become of me...i am very comfortable with myself...n i am proud of it......have given music the top priority......n m happy the way i am........
as expected...eminem's  the way i am and when i am gone is playing inside my mind now.........

wake me up inside......

Does it have to be that people have to come across you n cross you with their own feelings and emotions n points......even knowing that you will do nothing of their sort??????well i am not feeling lonely or sad nor i am mad.......its just that i am remenising few of my good moments........
Fight for this love by cheryl cole has gotten into my mind today....here's the link-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMiy_UsrPDs

heal the world.....

many people may hate me when i write this....but i am a die hard micheal jackson fan....
the thing is that how can people say so much about him????what exact right do they have........even if he changed his sex or made transformations......its his life...he has every right to absolutely what he wants........n coming to child rape.........a person like him...who can write a song like heal the world..........n being an artist myself...i know what it takes for the even a word to come in ur mind........it need sheer gratitude n intense feelings for that...i dont think he could do anything of that sort......n for the people who says that hes guilty.....what proof do you have????were the live audience??????or u have any sort of live footage...........see people my point is not to prove anyone wrong here......but itsd just that try and start respecting people for what they are n for the good they have done........
being a singer.....i salute him n pay all my gratitued towards him....u all may believe this or not....i myself was shocked with myself when i found myself crying when i heard MJ's death arrival.....................
as expected...MJ's heal the world is in the air....n i guess it should leave atleast the littlest mark on this world.....

morning before science exam......hahahaaa..music is more important.......

i was playing my guitar yesterday night at around three in the night........my mom got up n next thing i knew i could hear bangs on my bedroom's door.....i was up playing my trinity grade pieces!!!ill be completeing my sleep today in the afternoon........anthem of our dying day by story of the year...has charmed the morning...

flowing away in music.....n confusion....

listenin to into the night by santana ft chad koregr....awesome...n confused about my future......

roamer.....

thnx to all those who are following me first..n coming to my suprisingly suprising life...i will be shifting again!!!!this thig is irritating me...but its fine...i just have to focus on my music..thats it....john n sourav da are there to support me.....my mom n dad n bros too are there...so its all fine......smells like teen spirit by nirvana is running through my soul right now.....

right state of mind.......

well i am becoming stronger as each day passes by.......its like....even if i wanna cry at times..i cnt..tears wont come!!!!!well.....its ok...in a way..its good for me....when you are in a bad mood..beleive me.....the lyrics that comes into your mind is just awesome.!!!!eminem's the way i am is my soulmate for the day today..........

past all coming back to me........

my past is lingering me........and i am feeling quite uneasy......i feel like puking, this feeling is just too gross.......you know i have found and got what i longed for years now....now i dont want to loose it at any cost....but pressure seems to just soak me up.......but now i wont let it go.........well......james blunt's 1973 is my partener at this moment.......i just want to shrug this uneasiness away.....and i promise i will...nothing can take me out of my way now........i was given a choice between wasted human emotions and music....i chose music over that.....and i will hold on to it till the end.....i swear.......

i wanna grow old with you...

im listening to i wanna grow old with you by westlife.......i have tears in my eyes..........

i feel drunk.......just lisening to misic!!!

 hey good eve........i have just let myself flow away in music...believe me i feel drunk...even though i didnt have alcohol.........though a southern comfort shot would be really good at this moment...but what to do.....not available..........bring me back to life by evanescence is just awesome......im listenin to it right nw................my head is seriously is in the upper level.....seventh heaven is the word for today......

mornings now brings loads of questions......

hey everyone...my hindi exams over.....didnt expect it to bo so good.....music is going on.....playing my guitar till 2 o clock in t night.....it feels really good...especially wen ur in pain.....but loads of questions are arising in my head.....n i need to just shoo them away...coz they r disturbing my peace of mind........

addicted by enrique.......

addicted by enrique iglesias.......this morning goes for this song.........

lost in music :)

hello again...i have my hindi boards day after tomorrow n i am not worried at all......
John Mayer's your body is a wonderland has spell bounded me!!! i heard it like a 100 times or so today!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm back.......feels great... :)

hey everyone...i was gone for a while.......i am back now...feels great!!!!!!!!