seventh heaven!!!!!

seventh heaven!!!!
i am so damn happy today!!!!!!i am finally leaving rajasthan!!!!!!!~!!!feels like in the seventh heaven...i dont have words today....so i am signing off today..............
tik tok by kesha plays in mind today......... =)

God bless India...

i was listening to rang de basanti songs..........i cant believe i was crying!!!!! those songs, i mean i cant express it.i feel this strong wind storm inside my heart.that pressure inside me...it was too much. i write songs when i fell bad, about all the bad times. then the people who wrote those songs, what mind do they have!!!!! what intense feeling must they have had.
i am proud to be an Indian. i really am. i thank all the leaders who have helped us to be free. i am lucky to have been born today- the free India.
so many people died. so many wives cried. so many mothers carried their dead bleeding child in their arms. so many fathers had seen their daughters being raped in front of their eyes............
i always use to say that i hate Mahatma Gandhi. how could i be so cheap minded???i mean i dont even know that person well..........then who the hell am i to even say that i hate him????I WAS WRONG. he was a great man. all the leaders were great men and women.
i will never, ever forget this feeling i had today. my heart for the first time felt the chill of true patriotism for my own country.i literally felt as if i was seeing all those henus scenes in front of my eyes.it was like i had my hands tied and i couldnt do a thing. i am sorry for every little bad feeling that i had for my country God. although i was small and just commented on things.but today the feeling that i had...............it was revolutionary.tremendous it was.
believe me.....i couldnt gulp a thing.i cried like hell just listening to those songs. i clouldnt swallow my own salaiva. and people who think this is over reaction or something, please my humble request to those, dont visit my blog coz u dont belong here......
i feel weak. i knew it already.but today it is proved again. that music can take you anywhere, to heaven, its up to you, to hell, that too up to you. i mean it is the only thing that makes you cry for someone else if you really feel it.
its like you can feel someone else's feelings.
even though i am taking deep breaths right now, i need time to settle.my heart need to settle..i am a whole new person.cant say new but a lot better me with the sense of my wrongs.......
God, give me music.........

there are songs that makes you cry and there are songs that makes you remember times n help you relive moments...even if you don't want to.......here without you by three doors is making me shed tears.....i miss a lot of things....
you know there are a lot of untold stories....lots of misunderstandings...which are never to be told nor to be cleared.......everyone has their dark side..i too do so..........its just that it literally pains in my heart to remember few things..........i lived my life n enjoyed so much when i was beck there in Ajmer.....few friends are still in contact......i still cry thinking of those times...it meant just so much to me........i mean i spent my peak years there.........still now while writing this...i feel like someone's just stabbing my heart right in the middle of it..............
today i join my hands n bend my head in front of one of the most knows relationships-friendship......
its really hard to find real friends now a days...but i thank God for atleast letting me live that moment...even if it was very short lived.................
three doors' here without you....is playing n making my heart shrink............

i am what i say i am...just the way i am.....

many people think i am proud....they are right......but many people get a very wrong impression about me......
but its all ok...cause i have my own people supporting me.....but i just feel bad at times.....remembering the old times........
this picture of mine was taken in Ajmer...3 years back.....the book i am holding is food of love by antony capela........awesome book..i read it like four times...but to feel it..u need to have feelings.........m thats navneet behind...lead guitarist of the band that we once had...i miss those days a lot....jamming late nights......i just miss those days...but its fine..this pain has made me stronger.....
one thing i would like to make one thing clear n that is that what has become of me...i am very comfortable with myself...n i am proud of it......have given music the top priority......n m happy the way i am........
as expected...eminem's  the way i am and when i am gone is playing inside my mind now.........

wake me up inside......

Does it have to be that people have to come across you n cross you with their own feelings and emotions n points......even knowing that you will do nothing of their sort??????well i am not feeling lonely or sad nor i am mad.......its just that i am remenising few of my good moments........
Fight for this love by cheryl cole has gotten into my mind today....here's the link-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMiy_UsrPDs

heal the world.....

many people may hate me when i write this....but i am a die hard micheal jackson fan....
the thing is that how can people say so much about him????what exact right do they have........even if he changed his sex or made transformations......its his life...he has every right to absolutely what he wants........n coming to child rape.........a person like him...who can write a song like heal the world..........n being an artist myself...i know what it takes for the even a word to come in ur mind........it need sheer gratitude n intense feelings for that...i dont think he could do anything of that sort......n for the people who says that hes guilty.....what proof do you have????were the live audience??????or u have any sort of live footage...........see people my point is not to prove anyone wrong here......but itsd just that try and start respecting people for what they are n for the good they have done........
being a singer.....i salute him n pay all my gratitued towards him....u all may believe this or not....i myself was shocked with myself when i found myself crying when i heard MJ's death arrival.....................
as expected...MJ's heal the world is in the air....n i guess it should leave atleast the littlest mark on this world.....

morning before science exam......hahahaaa..music is more important.......

i was playing my guitar yesterday night at around three in the night........my mom got up n next thing i knew i could hear bangs on my bedroom's door.....i was up playing my trinity grade pieces!!!ill be completeing my sleep today in the afternoon........anthem of our dying day by story of the year...has charmed the morning...